Once again

Once again...I lie to thm...from the beginning till now...I don noe how many times I had told lie to thm...makes me feel vry uncomfortable...some times I do rly wanna tell thm the truth...but wat will happen after I told thm...I am afraid...I am afraid to hear n receive all those "noise" beside my ears...all I wan is just thm to respect me...respect my decision...

Lovely christmas^^

I have a lovely Christmas tis year...a vry wonderful Christmas tat I ever have...I have my dear with me tis.year...thx to god thx to dear...thx so much for giving me a lovely n wonderful Christmas...love you so much^^

Christmas wish

Christmas is coming...have no idea wat will happen tis Christmas...but my wish in tis Christmas...is I wanna b with terence in every year Christmas^^

Cloudy

Wen the day start...the lie keep on going n going...every time wen I am going out...I have to think of an excuse to hang out...i feel I am thief...I have to lie everything...but y...I feel bad...I wish I can tell the truth...I need u all to support me...I need some1 thr for me...I just wann b together with him...tat is all I wan it...

Feel gulity

Is almost two years...I don noe how I can keep it with me...I do wanna b honest to thm...but wat I get is a terrible answer...some times I do rly think of telling the truth...but who rly willing to noe it...I lie is cuz I care...I rly care...n since wen I began to used to it...more n more...make me feels so unwell...after all...the "story" I keep on saying...it do hurts me...I wish to have a happy ending...a wonderful happy ending...

Rainy Saturday...

Dear all, today I went to photo shop to get my graduation photo...n I gave it to mom have a look...n suddenly mom ask me about my dear...I was shock...n she ask me tat am I still with him...I don noe how to answer her...it makes me feel so complicated...I don noe how to tell her tat I am still with him...I don wish to lie to her...I feel so bad wen I lie to her every time wen I hang out with my dear...I wish to tell my whole family tat he is my dear...I wish to bring him back home for dinner too...I wish bring him along wen v have a family trip...I wish tat he can celebrate every festival with my family as well...but...why...why...I don noe how to tell thm...I wish to tell...but I don wish tat the "thing" will happen again...I don wish to choose...I don wan to choose...wat can I do...who can teach me...I just wish to b together with some1 tat I love...jesus...can u help me...can u teach me wat to do...wat can do tat can make all of thm happy...I don wish to lose any1...I don wan to lose my dear...

Sekinchan trip

Yesterday was a total great day...me n dear's family went to sekinchan 1 day trip...v have sea food as our lunch...tan v went to paddy, pictures, play around...haha...it was a vry wonderful day for me...I wish to b with dear like tat early day...n before v back to rawang...v stop at a cendol bakar to take a rest n eat some cendol...haha...wat a wonderful day I had...thx^^