Once again

Once again...I lie to thm...from the beginning till now...I don noe how many times I had told lie to thm...makes me feel vry uncomfortable...some times I do rly wanna tell thm the truth...but wat will happen after I told thm...I am afraid...I am afraid to hear n receive all those "noise" beside my ears...all I wan is just thm to respect me...respect my decision...

Lovely christmas^^

I have a lovely Christmas tis year...a vry wonderful Christmas tat I ever have...I have my dear with me tis.year...thx to god thx to dear...thx so much for giving me a lovely n wonderful Christmas...love you so much^^

Christmas wish

Christmas is coming...have no idea wat will happen tis Christmas...but my wish in tis Christmas...is I wanna b with terence in every year Christmas^^

Cloudy

Wen the day start...the lie keep on going n going...every time wen I am going out...I have to think of an excuse to hang out...i feel I am thief...I have to lie everything...but y...I feel bad...I wish I can tell the truth...I need u all to support me...I need some1 thr for me...I just wann b together with him...tat is all I wan it...

Feel gulity

Is almost two years...I don noe how I can keep it with me...I do wanna b honest to thm...but wat I get is a terrible answer...some times I do rly think of telling the truth...but who rly willing to noe it...I lie is cuz I care...I rly care...n since wen I began to used to it...more n more...make me feels so unwell...after all...the "story" I keep on saying...it do hurts me...I wish to have a happy ending...a wonderful happy ending...

Rainy Saturday...

Dear all, today I went to photo shop to get my graduation photo...n I gave it to mom have a look...n suddenly mom ask me about my dear...I was shock...n she ask me tat am I still with him...I don noe how to answer her...it makes me feel so complicated...I don noe how to tell her tat I am still with him...I don wish to lie to her...I feel so bad wen I lie to her every time wen I hang out with my dear...I wish to tell my whole family tat he is my dear...I wish to bring him back home for dinner too...I wish bring him along wen v have a family trip...I wish tat he can celebrate every festival with my family as well...but...why...why...I don noe how to tell thm...I wish to tell...but I don wish tat the "thing" will happen again...I don wish to choose...I don wan to choose...wat can I do...who can teach me...I just wish to b together with some1 tat I love...jesus...can u help me...can u teach me wat to do...wat can do tat can make all of thm happy...I don wish to lose any1...I don wan to lose my dear...

Sekinchan trip

Yesterday was a total great day...me n dear's family went to sekinchan 1 day trip...v have sea food as our lunch...tan v went to paddy, pictures, play around...haha...it was a vry wonderful day for me...I wish to b with dear like tat early day...n before v back to rawang...v stop at a cendol bakar to take a rest n eat some cendol...haha...wat a wonderful day I had...thx^^

Graduation n celebration day^^

Yesterday was my graduation day...after 2 n half year...finally now I am graduated^^hahahaha...thx to my dearest family n my dear sisters...thx to thm for coming to my gradution ceremony...giving me a lot of great...I also received flowers from thm...n a lovely call from my dear...although he is not thr with me...but I am glade tat he called me^^n tat nite I went to italiannisi for dinner to celebrate my graduate...n today I went to rawang Jusco n celebrate with my dear^^ I love u all for being thr with me...n let me to share the happiness with u all...thx god^^

Happy sunday

Early in the morning...I drove to HRC mass with my dear...after the mass I go n teach Sunday school with him...haha...now I noe wat is the feel of teaching a badge of kindergarten children...it was fun in the class with thm...n I met his partner...n it was her last day teaching...the kids r so cute...some r active...some r silent doing their coloring...after all...I went to dear's por por house to get some rest...it was so great to spend my Sunday with my dear...wen izzit I can bring my dear Terence come to my house...join our family...enjoy chit chatting with my family...I hope tat it will dreams come true...amen^^ I love all of u...Muackx...

Jesus camp

Tis three day two nite...I joined HRC to kuang for Jesus camp n is just near by dear's house...it was awesome...I get to noe more how is their church camp...I feel like so much fun...even thought some of thm is the first time I meet thm...is like v noe each other vry long time ago...haha...it was vry vry fun...I enjoy tis three day...with dear n all the fren...I have a wonderful camp...thx god...thx dear...I love both of u so much...<3<3

Another new month

New month new day...new target for me to achieve...I wanna go Hokkaido with my dear terence...I wan fast achieve to founder dd n back together with him...I wan forever with him...

The first week

Me n u have separated for 1 week d...I noe u r tired n sick for now...sry...I din now tat u rly feel tired...is my bad...Mayb is rite...Mayb not now but in future...I don noe how long will I need to wait...but wen time goes away...it seem to b something has change...the time v separate...I do feel sad for it...but I now the reason...not because of both of us...but my family...wat thy c now is nth from u...but wen the day u have full of success...thing will b change...everyone will have different feel to u d...dear...I rly wish tat I can b ur side all the time wen u need me...n I also wish tat u will too...but first thing is tat I need to build up a good relationship with my family...but I hoe tat after all this...u r the first person I like too share with...not as fren...not special fren...but my dear...my future husband...with all the support n agree from my family...u r one of my target too...I rdy love u more tan I thought..may the god bless us...

Bout me

I do rly noe tat u all r love me...care bout me...worry bout me...but do u all
Noe tat I can make my own decision...my own future...as u all said...I am no longer a little girl anymore...I am 21 years old...I noe wat I am doing...n I have my own way to choose who I love n like to b with...if is too much u guys will make me feel annoying...I noe wat u all do is good for me...but I wanna do some decision by myself...my way...my opinion...I noe all tis is just a challenge for me n him...both of us will accept all the challenge u all give it to us...n time will approve everything...cuz I have the most important person who support n love me...tat is Jesus...n the 2nd person is my dear Terence...

Think positive^^

Sometime I rly don noe have thy rly noe me...am I rly tat kind of person in their heart...if thy don wish to give me any support...I am ok with tat...I noe wat thy think...before all wat thy said to me...I rly think of it before...is tis bf rly suit to me...do he rly can protect me...do he rly can give me happiness in future...I do rly think before...but if u guys feel he rly is tis kind of person tan I am total speechless...is like I don noe wat to say...is just let the time shows everything...wat he rly r...wat kind of person he is...do he rly can protect me...give happiness...just let the time prove it...think positive tis wat my teacher always says to us...

moody day

v have a settlement with each other...i noe tat is just need time for us...but it make feel like i am not sad...not happy..but moody...i have no idea why...feel so complicated...i noe the problem will keep on going if both of us don settle it soon...i noe is hard to let her accept u...i noe...she just need time...wen i woke up tis morning...i feel so different...i don noe wat kind of different...i feel like i have no mood...but i feel ok...keep on looking with my phone...wonder will u give me a text or a call...but no...nth...wen my phone rang...i was wondering...will tat b u...but upset...not...i wonder tonight will u keep the promise tat i said...i wish u will...i will wait for u...

Sad...

Is it really age make us feel distance...no...I don think so...no matter how...I wont give up my relationship tis easily...is hard to find a person tat u love n is also vry patient on everything...hope tat u all understand me...i noe wat I am doing...noe how to make my own decision...I hope I get respect n support from all of u...I din think of make u all to worry...I just noe wat I am doing...just give me a break...

sad day...

Yesterday Was suppose to b a wonderful day...but after a thing had happen...everything has ruin...sometime I rly don understand...y...I am just hanging out with my fren...I din do sometime like drug or clubbing...my fren is all better tan gor gor thm much...I din even go n smoke also...is I don understand thm or is thy din try to understand me...is like do my parents rly noe me...I noe I did something wrong in the 1st place...I noe I din tell thm is my fault...I feel so unfair for being treat by thm...I noe thy care bout me I noe love me...but sometime I rly wan my life...

No success no love

Yesterday my dear told me tat...he just know tat bobo n pkk break up is cuz thy wanna reach their target 1st ly continue their love story...it make s me feel so their r vry brave to make tis kind of decision...I can't make the same way as thy did...omg...if my dear also wanna make tis kind of decision too...I can say is nth...if both of us also feel the same way...tan v just follow wat our upline do...cuz follow their step...tab v will b success like thm...so me n dear must b success vry fast...I think before my graduation...v sure rdy reach our target...i am vry sure for tat...cuz I wanna prove to my parents n my family...wat I do now is for my future...yes go dear...v can reach our diamond way soon...

Happy friday

Omg...I met back my primary schoolmate...haha...n I found all my dear fren d...I so happy...before tat I keep thinking tat...will I meet thm back...I miss thm so much...haha...happy happy...n baby change the state into engage...haha..feel so sweet n I love my baby so much...baby...v sure can together become dd soon...n v can go travel together le...can go "honey moon" early...haha...

Bullshit

Is suppose to b a great day for me...until wat she said...stupid n bullshit reason...is true...I have no reason to make u to like him n accept...but u r giving a vry bad reason to me...n it hurt too...can u give me a good reason wen u said tis reason...u don even now who he is...n just give me such a stupid n bullshit reason...u have no reason to give a comment like tis...u should support me...but wat i gain from u is all tis rubbish...thx for it...n I will prove it to u someday...n I am sure tat u will b regret wat u have said to me...

My 21st birthday

I was happy... N I am glad tat my dear celebrate my birth with me...although without present...I am still happy for it...my heart keep on wonder n wonder tat will he able to celebrate with me...haha...surprise...yes he is able to...at his popo's house...his family n cousin...haha...I was so happy n I appreciate it...thx for all...don feel bad for everything...the most important thing is...u r beside me wen I need u...I love you dear^^thx god for giving me a lovely birthday...wish tat me n his dream will come true...n v can travel around the world together...forever n ever...a men^^

21 birthday

Today 21 birthday le....haha...grown up d le...cannot b little girl any more d...haix...but never mind de...I still got my dear, my family n my dear fren...all of thm will always be beside me n laugh with me...I love u all so much...thx for all...muackx muackx muackx...

Don!!!!!!!!!!

I suddenly feel scare...if someday u rly gonna shift to Melaka...how???i am so scare n worry tat someday u suddenly tell me tat u gonna shift...but if u don...can?i don wan like tat...is so far away from here...ur parents rdy brought a new house over thr...don don...I don wan u shift to Melaka...don wan can ma???i will miss u so much de lo...plz...don suddenly come to me tell me tat u gonna shift soon...u rdy stay far from my house d...if u rly shift d...tat is even more far away from here...don wan la...I don wan I don wan like tat...I don wan...plz don...