Once again

Once again...I lie to thm...from the beginning till now...I don noe how many times I had told lie to thm...makes me feel vry uncomfortable...some times I do rly wanna tell thm the truth...but wat will happen after I told thm...I am afraid...I am afraid to hear n receive all those "noise" beside my ears...all I wan is just thm to respect me...respect my decision...