Feel gulity

Is almost two years...I don noe how I can keep it with me...I do wanna b honest to thm...but wat I get is a terrible answer...some times I do rly think of telling the truth...but who rly willing to noe it...I lie is cuz I care...I rly care...n since wen I began to used to it...more n more...make me feels so unwell...after all...the "story" I keep on saying...it do hurts me...I wish to have a happy ending...a wonderful happy ending...